replacement

Right now, my house smells like massive amounts of Simply Green cleaner. This is because we are currently getting a new stove installed. The old one finally melted some essential piece due to its being here for 20+ years. So management decided it was time for a new one. Two weeks earlier, my dad installed a new shower head that can move vertically. I was at Alyssa's house when my dad text me about this, and she seemed confused as to why I was so excited about this. I explained that the old one had been too short for even my mom, who's the shortest in the family, and that water pressure had always been low. Showers that previously took 30 minutes now take 10. The upgrading of these basic luxuries make me thrilled. Yet it seems like everything is getting replaced.
I start Moorpark community college tomorrow. High school is being replaced with college. A half-mile course to school is replaced with a 10 mile, 15 minute drive. I’ll still be seeing a lot of familiar faces, though most are ones I thought I’d never see (or want to see, honestly) again after graduation. I want a fresh start and it's mildly crushing that I won't get that because I restrain myself around people that I’ve known too long but I’ve never connected with. Kim did tell me that her first year, she found herself talking with old schoolmates that she never encountered before. Only time will tell if that's the course for me, and if I can sustain being here for 2 more years.
After Moorpark, I hope to move to Seattle for Seattle Pacific University. There have been many signs lately that it's a good place for me to go. Yes, most people I tell this to inform me of the weather and the suicide rates and Kurt Cobain, yadayadayada. That used to be my view on the city as well. The more I look into it, the more beautiful appears. I’m really tired of the same weather all the time in Thousand Oaks, and when we only get rain instead of snow. And as much as I love unpredictability, what was up with it raining for 20 minutes on Thursday? That night, there was a lightening and thunderstorm, which I had never seen occur without being accompanied with rain.
I hope to also visit Minnesota [Minnehhsoda!] where my new friends hail from. The weather there seems to be diverse as well, and the 4 Coon Rapids kids that I got to spend 3 days with are amazingly friendly, so that puts a good impression of it on my mind. I know no place is perfect, and I hope to live in many places through out the course of my life. I just hope I don’t go crazy here waiting for that opportunity to arrive.



coon rapids + thousand oaks friends forever

UV

i finally have a job! the outfit it atrocious, some old people are rude, but for the most part it's alright. after a month of doing nothing, it feels weird to be working again. it's a lot more than at the ceramics place but i like being busy.